shiny plankton

i've been holding back a lot lately, and all because of the same reason. different situations, same reason. SAME. God knows how completely frustrated i am with that reason. but i'm impressed, too.

so i wanted to talk about other stuff, thus the 'shiny plankton' above,
but i feel it again. so planktons and jellyfishes have to wait.

i wasn't a star athlete or anything, but i did run track for a while. my best is 400m.
the first part of the race is where i'll lead. the first stretch is where my opponents will catch up. the second bend gives me a chance to overtake them, and the finishing line sees them all eating dust. (or mud, referring to padang mrsm taiping yang sentiasa kehujanan.)

if only the races in my life can be as simple.

but what i do see is, ever since childhood, i've been running the same race which i thought was over, but when i'm not aware, it will catch up to me.
i'm winning, i know i am. i even beat her a lot of times, i have all the facts to prove that.
i have everything my opponent doesn't have.
but between both of us, somehow i know i am still the sore loser.
it came back to haunt me recently, and i found myself fighting a losing battle.

run as fast as i might, i will never overtake this one mighty opponent.

never.

kalau ada orang tahu, sila beritahu saya. how do you define 'soulmate' ya?