what you see is not the real me

and what do i care if you judge me by:

appearance, perangai, sikap

clothes, with tudung or not, baju murah ke mahal

grades, aku manusia normal juga yang layak mendapat A atau C atau gagal terus

kereta webby model mid 90s yang ringan boleh terbang

pendiam ke banyak cakap ke

kakak aku cantik, kenapa aku tidak? (rujuk gambar. yg dicari semata2 sbb minggu lepas ada banyak kali perbincangan tentang kebaya antara saya dan rakan2.)

eh aku sudah melebih-lebih ni.

i started out thinking i wanted to write a, naturally, entry with a tinge of emo-ness or runsing or gelisah tanpa sebab. then i decided what the heck, life will drag you down with it even if you scream yourself hoarse. go with the flow saje, i know it's still clichéd but who cares, who cares, who cares.

ini hidup saya.

so letting go is somehow easier, like smiling is easier to do rather than frown, mengalah is easier than standing your ground, tido saje is easier than berterusan membuat keje. heheh.

okay don't take me seriously, kesimpulannya hanyalah buat saja apa yang kamu mahu.
sebab setahun yang lalu saya cool macam air batu, but this year i'm not that cool.

did i melt?

hehe sronok btul entry merepek camni untuk menyedapkan hati. okay, mari balik keje. i love you all, my fans. jangan tolak-tolak, saya tau saya kachak.

oh ya. one more tip. i especially love it if someone's face lit up when they saw me. my nephew, my friends who've been waiting. etc. so i've been trying to do the same to everyone else, and believe me, aunty cleaner kat sini amat suka men-senyum kembali kat saya. hehe. so next time when you see me dari jauh ke dah dekat ke, sila senyum dengan gembira. i will love you so much, i promise.

all it takes is just a smile.