there was a time when i didn't understand a single word there for i am not yet accepted into its world. as time goes by, i became the only one who understood completely what is written there. how i pride myself in knowing i have the privilege none others seems to have. while cherishing what is obviously mine, my imperfections took the best of me and tainted the place. oh, could i be more wrong? do i have to keep living behind a cheerful façade in order to continue comprehending the words? maybe that is what's expected of me. maybe not. because now i see, i am no longer there, and i'm slipping away. i couldn't understand this, nor that. wait, did i miss something here? is it not about me anymore? now, once again, i don't understand anything there for maybe it doesn't concern me anymore. so it hurts to know that i have lost the privilege...or it was given to someone else.

dah, jgn sibuk nak cuba faham.

*tutup komen*